woooooooooooooooooooooot~
I miss you guys :( Reading all the old posts :) And laughing at hy's new post. What? Have we all become aunties already? :) Hahas.
Wanted to post the other day. Cos I dreamt of the rg band peeps. All in Europe. Haha. In a snowy kind of place. Guess we were holidaying or something. And it was like kind of an adventure climb or something. Cos we were all clambering over some rocks covered with snow. And as usual, the sporty and brave people like Rui and Inez are like shooting ahead, and disappearing into the white wilderness. And like me and most of the gang (HAHA) were like panting and trying to get ahead. And then trying to call them (the people ahead) back cos we found a shelter for the night and didn't want to go further HAHA! Well weird dream but quite cool.
I am doing my dissertation. I'm such a boring geek these days. All I talk about or do is my dissertation. Lala~ Went to London for the Halloween weekend. Londoners are so not adventurous about costumes. Bleh~ And went to watch Avenue Q cos Wicked (which I thought was a great Halloween thing to catch) was full. It's so funny. Haha. I just laughed and laughed. I don't know if there's a youtube thingy or whatever. But go watch it. It's quite cynical and yet hilarious. I do think it's the kind of thing we like x.x (Do tell me if I'm wrong)It's about how screwed up life is basically. And quite true it is. Maybe that's why it's funny. There are some explicit muppet sex scenes (which I found highly disturbing) and quite a bit of vulgarity. But it's all in good fun. I do recommend it if anyone's bored and sick of life. It makes you see the funny side of things :)
Well - before I write a bloody long essay - tata~
Friday, July 17
hey! i'm home early today. lessons end 2hrs early on fridays. so we dont have to go back after lunch. so i decided to blog (when i saw cin's post yesterday, so dont gloat)
first things first, i nv go travelling with them because.. they didnt wanna travel last weekend. and wanted to go to the mall.. which was kind of boring.. because i'd been there many times. and i didnt really wanna go to the mall just to take purikuras anyway. so i went to this place called inuyama. and it was really small. but nice. only i was on my own and didnt have much time to stop pple to take photos for me.. so its just pics of the scenery. snap and go kind. but as cin knows. i like to have people in my photos. so that was abit.. regretful. it was really tiring though. left house at 8am and returned at about 9pm. popped by nagoya on the way home to grab a hrc pin for my father..
this wk they're off to kyoto for the gion matsuri. but i'm not going because there will be too many people i think. may be off to matsumoto. but its kinda far and i'm feeling lazy. but i know that if i dont. then i most probably would not. so.. it'll be a super expensive trip as well. maybe next week we'll do something as a house, like make a date to go eat the giant parfait or something.
caught the gokusen movie though! didnt understand half of it and it was rather expensive.. but it was fun just watching a movie that had just come out and stuff. besides, the storyline is always similar.. so cant really go wrong. it was fun.. 4 of us watched it in all =)
and how was badminton today then? i hope you all ache alot after that hehhheh. but it also shows that you had a good workout =)
and i dont forget you guys whilst travelling. keep thinking that.. so and so will like this. i wanna show this to.. whoever. kind of thing. but travelling alone's really nice as well. and i've managed to get by with very mediocre japanese.
good job on the research! how was the concert? i miss mr oura =(
no more band, no more mr oura as well.. i miss my trumpet too..
you guys shld have bought him ferrero rocher for the concert! only i doubt you'd have gotten to see him..
ehh which korean guy were you drooling at? i dont like the korean hyd guy too. but i'm not sorry :p nahh. kidding.
and today.. well. it was a long story. i kind of feel bad.. so i'm going to write it here. our blog should really be locked. i dont think anyone will find it.. but hrmmms. dangerous.
so to cut a long story short. i've been having lessons from 9am to 240 in the afternoon with a 50 min lunch break. then i had private lessons. computer sessions 3x a week where you do exercises on the computer and the tcher corrects them. and then i was super bored at computer sessions so i changed it to private lessons 3x a week (more expensive) so frm this week i'll have lessons til 340 3x a week.
my private teachers are damn cool! the woman teacher has family in singapore. and shes like.. really nice. she gets amused easily.. i get scared when she starts laughing at what i say.. haha. the male teacher is even cooler! haha. cause he asked what i wanted to do.. like particles/conversation and stuff during private lessons.. and like.. various questions. and then i brought up the fact that my housemates and i watched some variety show together..and went for the gokusen movie.. and he was like.. thats good. pls try to watch some everyday! hahahah. i mean, its gd to learn this way and its common sense.. but the way he said it was really funny..
i dont know if i told you guys that i got placed in a class lower than my abilities. so i was like really bored for the first week. they kept emphasizing that this is a conversation class and that my abilities were kinda below par.. which is kinda true. but after warming up for a few days. i requested another placement test to move up. thats esp because the book that they use is the same and that the materials are similar so its like really really repetitive and boring. and like.. motivation was slowly seeping away from me.
geee. so i kinda did pretty ok on the test. or so i thought. and i asked around and supposedly i shld have been able to move up. so today when i looked at the class allocation lists (that are changed every friday) i was not able to jump levels. i was in the same class albeit halved because the others didnt do well on their test (which was different from the placement test that i took) so it was just essentially the same class with people that are able to progress to the next part of the curriculum. theres a test weekly to see if they can continue with the syllabus for you, if not you have to repeat it for a week. and theres a huge test once every 2 weeks to see if you can switch classes or move up to the next level.
so they told me the next class didnt have vacancy and i cldnt move. and i swear you cld almost see steam emanating from my head for at least an hour. whilst the teacher was talking i was like.. concentrate, concentrate, concentrate! and i was just so pissed off. was thinking like.. did you give me the test just to placate me knowing that i cannot move up.
the people are here for varying periods of time and commence study differently. so its like. every thursday.. the program ends for a number of people, and pple leave, so there should be vacancies opened up. so i didnt understand why no vacancy in the next class. so i was fuming and i think my housemates were shocked that.. tm cld be so.. i dont know.
because theres this jap major in my class who is also my housemate, and she is better than me at jap.. learnt it for 2 years, but she didnt do v well on the written test. so she accepted that she couldnt move up. and i just.. couldnt accept it. because i think i got the requisite marks from both the written and spoken tests, and no vacancy is not a valid excuse. esp if you keep advertising the fact that if there is too many people in the class, they usually will try to split it up and then keep class sizes small. if you make the claim, then you'd better substantiate it, was what i thought.
so i went to see the teacher in charge of the program and he said ok. see me after lessons end for the day and i'll ask the teacher of the next class to interview you to see if you can move up. and thank goodness for me, the teacher is a nice one.. from what i heard, and i think it kinda facilitated me moving up. so i start a new class on monday! and from there on, it'll be difficult and challenging cause things will be moving much faster than usual. and i'll have to read to catch up. but its definitely something i look forward to.
but at the same time i feel bad, because they did it in a really nice way.. and i was just like.. super bummed out from it i guess they could tell. like your motivation sinks lower than it already was. at that point in time, i kinda understood why this guy in my class (who left yesterday) kept skipping class. i was so bummed out i just wanted to walk out of class immediately. well, its just me and my violent tendencies and emotions at work again -shrugs-
so. i think. us rggirls are maybe a little aggressive huh.
so thats the end of my story. teacher was like. dont pull a long face all the time, i understand where are you coming from and i dont doubt ur abilities but this is a conversational course and not academic. implying that well the chapter you're at doesn't really matter.
and i swaer i never pull long face all the time. AND i was just thinking that its no use practising slowly things that you've learnt and practiced before if the context and the stuff you learn and practice are the same.. like you dont get ahead. esp if you dont have enough vocab. so yeah. was emo about it. but then in the end i cldnt express my gratitude to them for allowing me to move up either becasue.. well. i asked it was ok for me to speak in english. and the tcher expresseedly said cannot beacuse this is a jap sch even though they all understand english perfectly fine and speak the language perfectly. they hardly let us catch them speaking english or give us the option of speaking english because it is a jap sch.. unless you need help from the international office that is -.-
so i have come here to rant. and i'm sorry this is like my personal blog. the posts are long winded. eeeeeps.
first things first, i nv go travelling with them because.. they didnt wanna travel last weekend. and wanted to go to the mall.. which was kind of boring.. because i'd been there many times. and i didnt really wanna go to the mall just to take purikuras anyway. so i went to this place called inuyama. and it was really small. but nice. only i was on my own and didnt have much time to stop pple to take photos for me.. so its just pics of the scenery. snap and go kind. but as cin knows. i like to have people in my photos. so that was abit.. regretful. it was really tiring though. left house at 8am and returned at about 9pm. popped by nagoya on the way home to grab a hrc pin for my father..
this wk they're off to kyoto for the gion matsuri. but i'm not going because there will be too many people i think. may be off to matsumoto. but its kinda far and i'm feeling lazy. but i know that if i dont. then i most probably would not. so.. it'll be a super expensive trip as well. maybe next week we'll do something as a house, like make a date to go eat the giant parfait or something.
caught the gokusen movie though! didnt understand half of it and it was rather expensive.. but it was fun just watching a movie that had just come out and stuff. besides, the storyline is always similar.. so cant really go wrong. it was fun.. 4 of us watched it in all =)
and how was badminton today then? i hope you all ache alot after that hehhheh. but it also shows that you had a good workout =)
and i dont forget you guys whilst travelling. keep thinking that.. so and so will like this. i wanna show this to.. whoever. kind of thing. but travelling alone's really nice as well. and i've managed to get by with very mediocre japanese.
good job on the research! how was the concert? i miss mr oura =(
no more band, no more mr oura as well.. i miss my trumpet too..
you guys shld have bought him ferrero rocher for the concert! only i doubt you'd have gotten to see him..
ehh which korean guy were you drooling at? i dont like the korean hyd guy too. but i'm not sorry :p nahh. kidding.
and today.. well. it was a long story. i kind of feel bad.. so i'm going to write it here. our blog should really be locked. i dont think anyone will find it.. but hrmmms. dangerous.
so to cut a long story short. i've been having lessons from 9am to 240 in the afternoon with a 50 min lunch break. then i had private lessons. computer sessions 3x a week where you do exercises on the computer and the tcher corrects them. and then i was super bored at computer sessions so i changed it to private lessons 3x a week (more expensive) so frm this week i'll have lessons til 340 3x a week.
my private teachers are damn cool! the woman teacher has family in singapore. and shes like.. really nice. she gets amused easily.. i get scared when she starts laughing at what i say.. haha. the male teacher is even cooler! haha. cause he asked what i wanted to do.. like particles/conversation and stuff during private lessons.. and like.. various questions. and then i brought up the fact that my housemates and i watched some variety show together..and went for the gokusen movie.. and he was like.. thats good. pls try to watch some everyday! hahahah. i mean, its gd to learn this way and its common sense.. but the way he said it was really funny..
i dont know if i told you guys that i got placed in a class lower than my abilities. so i was like really bored for the first week. they kept emphasizing that this is a conversation class and that my abilities were kinda below par.. which is kinda true. but after warming up for a few days. i requested another placement test to move up. thats esp because the book that they use is the same and that the materials are similar so its like really really repetitive and boring. and like.. motivation was slowly seeping away from me.
geee. so i kinda did pretty ok on the test. or so i thought. and i asked around and supposedly i shld have been able to move up. so today when i looked at the class allocation lists (that are changed every friday) i was not able to jump levels. i was in the same class albeit halved because the others didnt do well on their test (which was different from the placement test that i took) so it was just essentially the same class with people that are able to progress to the next part of the curriculum. theres a test weekly to see if they can continue with the syllabus for you, if not you have to repeat it for a week. and theres a huge test once every 2 weeks to see if you can switch classes or move up to the next level.
so they told me the next class didnt have vacancy and i cldnt move. and i swear you cld almost see steam emanating from my head for at least an hour. whilst the teacher was talking i was like.. concentrate, concentrate, concentrate! and i was just so pissed off. was thinking like.. did you give me the test just to placate me knowing that i cannot move up.
the people are here for varying periods of time and commence study differently. so its like. every thursday.. the program ends for a number of people, and pple leave, so there should be vacancies opened up. so i didnt understand why no vacancy in the next class. so i was fuming and i think my housemates were shocked that.. tm cld be so.. i dont know.
because theres this jap major in my class who is also my housemate, and she is better than me at jap.. learnt it for 2 years, but she didnt do v well on the written test. so she accepted that she couldnt move up. and i just.. couldnt accept it. because i think i got the requisite marks from both the written and spoken tests, and no vacancy is not a valid excuse. esp if you keep advertising the fact that if there is too many people in the class, they usually will try to split it up and then keep class sizes small. if you make the claim, then you'd better substantiate it, was what i thought.
so i went to see the teacher in charge of the program and he said ok. see me after lessons end for the day and i'll ask the teacher of the next class to interview you to see if you can move up. and thank goodness for me, the teacher is a nice one.. from what i heard, and i think it kinda facilitated me moving up. so i start a new class on monday! and from there on, it'll be difficult and challenging cause things will be moving much faster than usual. and i'll have to read to catch up. but its definitely something i look forward to.
but at the same time i feel bad, because they did it in a really nice way.. and i was just like.. super bummed out from it i guess they could tell. like your motivation sinks lower than it already was. at that point in time, i kinda understood why this guy in my class (who left yesterday) kept skipping class. i was so bummed out i just wanted to walk out of class immediately. well, its just me and my violent tendencies and emotions at work again -shrugs-
so. i think. us rggirls are maybe a little aggressive huh.
so thats the end of my story. teacher was like. dont pull a long face all the time, i understand where are you coming from and i dont doubt ur abilities but this is a conversational course and not academic. implying that well the chapter you're at doesn't really matter.
and i swaer i never pull long face all the time. AND i was just thinking that its no use practising slowly things that you've learnt and practiced before if the context and the stuff you learn and practice are the same.. like you dont get ahead. esp if you dont have enough vocab. so yeah. was emo about it. but then in the end i cldnt express my gratitude to them for allowing me to move up either becasue.. well. i asked it was ok for me to speak in english. and the tcher expresseedly said cannot beacuse this is a jap sch even though they all understand english perfectly fine and speak the language perfectly. they hardly let us catch them speaking english or give us the option of speaking english because it is a jap sch.. unless you need help from the international office that is -.-
so i have come here to rant. and i'm sorry this is like my personal blog. the posts are long winded. eeeeeps.
Thursday, July 16
Wednesday, July 15
omg tm! i'm so glad u're doing so well. and i -for once- have been going on msn VERY often but i NEVER see u. like never. like never never. (don't tell me it's the time difference haha). and i'm glad u've found many friends and that your housemates are so friendly - why you never go travelling with them - surely they'll like to see the city more. and it'll be fun to go watch gokusen the movie with them cos at least u won't be the only one strugglign to understand. i totally cannot make it watching without subtitles. it's like when they come to the emoemo part where the people have soliloquyss (OMG I CANT SPELL IT) have long thoughtful thingies or when they have lengthy explanations about how the victim was killed i totally give up.
and i am keeping up the weekly badminton thing. i'm SOOOOOO proud of myself (for organizing somethingg and for keeping fit). woohooo~ we're going this fri afternoon - and tm, we'll think of you! hahaa~ don't forget us while travelling HOR.
and the research. i am doing today! yay! after like 2 weeks' break =( i know i'm very lazy. i felt so lazy yesterday and guilty and stressed out. so today i woke up early (as in like 9.30am + some snoooze time) to study. except i ended up watching some drama while eating breakfast and googling the handsome (actually not handsome but i like him nonethelesss and i'm not going to say who cos everyone's gonna laugh at me GRRR like i laugh at hy for liking the koreann hana yori dango boy - i'm evil, sorry hy) boy. and then i started work at 11am, but i've been chatting to cl and lynette on msn and uhh googling from time to time. but i'm nearly done with my 15th pg. except i'm not going to make it on time to finish the book AND vacuum and mop the floor AND iron all the clothes AND shower and get ready for the concert tonight x.x so exciting. i can just imagine all the feelings flooding back. of the smell in the esplanade. of the music. except this time i won't be sitting amidst the instruments and in front of our beloved mr. oura. this time i'll be sitting comfortably(?) in the audience, one of those anonymous faces i've always wondered at while sitting on the stage in the first few tense moments before getting lost in the musicccc~
and tm, no way is this going to be YOUR personal blog. more like OUR personal blog ok. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
and i am keeping up the weekly badminton thing. i'm SOOOOOO proud of myself (for organizing somethingg and for keeping fit). woohooo~ we're going this fri afternoon - and tm, we'll think of you! hahaa~ don't forget us while travelling HOR.
and the research. i am doing today! yay! after like 2 weeks' break =( i know i'm very lazy. i felt so lazy yesterday and guilty and stressed out. so today i woke up early (as in like 9.30am + some snoooze time) to study. except i ended up watching some drama while eating breakfast and googling the handsome (actually not handsome but i like him nonethelesss and i'm not going to say who cos everyone's gonna laugh at me GRRR like i laugh at hy for liking the koreann hana yori dango boy - i'm evil, sorry hy) boy. and then i started work at 11am, but i've been chatting to cl and lynette on msn and uhh googling from time to time. but i'm nearly done with my 15th pg. except i'm not going to make it on time to finish the book AND vacuum and mop the floor AND iron all the clothes AND shower and get ready for the concert tonight x.x so exciting. i can just imagine all the feelings flooding back. of the smell in the esplanade. of the music. except this time i won't be sitting amidst the instruments and in front of our beloved mr. oura. this time i'll be sitting comfortably(?) in the audience, one of those anonymous faces i've always wondered at while sitting on the stage in the first few tense moments before getting lost in the musicccc~
and tm, no way is this going to be YOUR personal blog. more like OUR personal blog ok. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Friday, July 10
hey pple -waves- i'm still alive!
so very sorry. it's been almost 4 days.. was gonna blog but various things just ate up my time. and cin.. i'm so sorry that you were scolded cause you went home late!
anyway. i'm ok! i miss you guys too.. greatly. this summer was so short. and i dont know. i'm still adapting to life here. the pple are friendly and the accomodation is nice. there are 11 rooms in the house, previously only 4 pple lived here. then this whole new batch of us came in and we have like what.. 9 i think.
the first few days.. dinners were 4 hour affairs where we just ate sushi/cooked at home and sat at the dining table and talked. that's why my nights have been so happening i havent posted! then i come online to talk to pple. and die early in the morn. i was fine the whole of today despite sleeping late last night, and erms. just flopped onto the bed to nap at 6pm. thank goodness fridays are shorter sch days.. i've private lessons so i end an hr later everyday. but all's well i hope. my placement is pretty much lower than i hoped. but i cant complain because my housemate who knows like more terms and such as me got placed in the same conversation class -.- anyway.. just had dinner :)
so how was badminton? i miss badminton playing. at least i can pretend to feel fit. been doing alot of walking around here. but i havent taken pictures of the town. nothing much really. just a really quaint and quiet one. havent visited the local sights apart from this huge mall like 30min away from where we stay. its not like we shop much cause the stuff are so expensive.
i've been pretty confused lately. and its like cultural differences at work. plus i think i'm almost at the time where i'm supposed to be emo. so i have no idea. today was teh first day of sch following the placement test and orientation. i realised i could have left singapore tuesday night instead. but at least i had time to get used to teh place, shop for stuff and like settle in with the housemates..
but being the only asian here is weird (a little) because its cultural differences. but yeah. i was so glad when this long term study taiwanese girl came back frm her little summer break yesterday. she can understand eng, but cant speak much.. so i've been practising chinese with her :) and shes like really really hospitable. we've been shoving each other milk tea from our secret stashes. haha.
i see you're keeping fit cin! good job.. how's the research going? -winks-
i think i'm travelling tomorrow. alone. i still dont understand what pple are saying but from what i heard, the transport's ok. as in relatively convenient. so i shld do it. instead of not. i wish to know more abt the city and the surroundings rather than go to the same few places everyday. which have pretty much been the case actually.
and you know what. not only guys make vulgar jokes.
and we're potentially the bitchiest girls around because we wont accept anything less than an rg girl =p
i've ranted on and on. and this is ALMOST my personal blog already. i'll post soon, maybe during one of these days when i'm having brekkie and have nothing to do. got homework to do every day.. so it wont be that free. and potentially i'l be watching gokusen the movie at the mall on sunday.. no subtitles and my jap is so bad i wont understand it. hopefully it helps with the learning though.. the story line just cant go wrong i think..
so yeps. talk online to me if you're on msn! i'm online a whole lot more than when i'm back home. in btwn trying to catch live telecasts of some shows on tv in my room, and wasting time doing stupid stuff on the internet and hw.. i hope i'll be free enough :) if i dont waste too much time doing stupid things. time to be more efficient!
take care people
so very sorry. it's been almost 4 days.. was gonna blog but various things just ate up my time. and cin.. i'm so sorry that you were scolded cause you went home late!
anyway. i'm ok! i miss you guys too.. greatly. this summer was so short. and i dont know. i'm still adapting to life here. the pple are friendly and the accomodation is nice. there are 11 rooms in the house, previously only 4 pple lived here. then this whole new batch of us came in and we have like what.. 9 i think.
the first few days.. dinners were 4 hour affairs where we just ate sushi/cooked at home and sat at the dining table and talked. that's why my nights have been so happening i havent posted! then i come online to talk to pple. and die early in the morn. i was fine the whole of today despite sleeping late last night, and erms. just flopped onto the bed to nap at 6pm. thank goodness fridays are shorter sch days.. i've private lessons so i end an hr later everyday. but all's well i hope. my placement is pretty much lower than i hoped. but i cant complain because my housemate who knows like more terms and such as me got placed in the same conversation class -.- anyway.. just had dinner :)
so how was badminton? i miss badminton playing. at least i can pretend to feel fit. been doing alot of walking around here. but i havent taken pictures of the town. nothing much really. just a really quaint and quiet one. havent visited the local sights apart from this huge mall like 30min away from where we stay. its not like we shop much cause the stuff are so expensive.
i've been pretty confused lately. and its like cultural differences at work. plus i think i'm almost at the time where i'm supposed to be emo. so i have no idea. today was teh first day of sch following the placement test and orientation. i realised i could have left singapore tuesday night instead. but at least i had time to get used to teh place, shop for stuff and like settle in with the housemates..
but being the only asian here is weird (a little) because its cultural differences. but yeah. i was so glad when this long term study taiwanese girl came back frm her little summer break yesterday. she can understand eng, but cant speak much.. so i've been practising chinese with her :) and shes like really really hospitable. we've been shoving each other milk tea from our secret stashes. haha.
i see you're keeping fit cin! good job.. how's the research going? -winks-
i think i'm travelling tomorrow. alone. i still dont understand what pple are saying but from what i heard, the transport's ok. as in relatively convenient. so i shld do it. instead of not. i wish to know more abt the city and the surroundings rather than go to the same few places everyday. which have pretty much been the case actually.
and you know what. not only guys make vulgar jokes.
and we're potentially the bitchiest girls around because we wont accept anything less than an rg girl =p
i've ranted on and on. and this is ALMOST my personal blog already. i'll post soon, maybe during one of these days when i'm having brekkie and have nothing to do. got homework to do every day.. so it wont be that free. and potentially i'l be watching gokusen the movie at the mall on sunday.. no subtitles and my jap is so bad i wont understand it. hopefully it helps with the learning though.. the story line just cant go wrong i think..
so yeps. talk online to me if you're on msn! i'm online a whole lot more than when i'm back home. in btwn trying to catch live telecasts of some shows on tv in my room, and wasting time doing stupid stuff on the internet and hw.. i hope i'll be free enough :) if i dont waste too much time doing stupid things. time to be more efficient!
take care people
Thursday, July 9
my darlings~ this blog is dead again. despite tm's promise to write often in nagoya where she supposedly has nothing to do at night. tm, u alright?!!! we miss u. and hy and i (hopefully) are playing badminton tomorrow at yck stadium :) i tried calling the bllooody place since ONE pm.and the lady picked up and said 'telephone bookings start at 2pm' so fine. since 2pm i've been calling at 15 minutes' interval till like 6pm when i've finally reached home after supposedly atttempting to do the tree-top trail except it RAINED so we just ate at a coffeeshop till like now cos i have to come home to eat dinner. heeding hy's advice, i got myself an account at the iBook thingie to book myself a 'sports facility' and managed to book 'Court 1' except i can't 'Pay by Credit Card' cos I don't have one nor is the option 'Pay by Cashcard' valid, so I don't know if that's considered booked x.x Omg i'm so long-winded. Oh well, but hopefully i'll get to play badminton with hy tomorrow and then do the tree-top trail later in the afternoon before dinner with hy and sending iris off at the airport.
IRISSSSSS. i miss iris. and i've met her like twice only so far =( during the very short 'Ants in the Pants????' outing and the rather short ice-skating-turned-bowling outing. i really won't mind ice-skating if we want to do it again. bring gloves and socks! umm and don't go at 12pm or 4pm or 7pm when they are resurfacing the ice. and mann luckily bowling is cheap cos i'm just wasting my money sending the bowl(?!) into the gutter. but meeting everyone was great. and laughing insanely and making lots of noise and cheering each other on felt wonderful. i love girly outings. i hate it when guys get together and make VULGAR jokes that are totally not funny. i mean, think about it, shouldn't the swear-word-fad be over like a few years back?! it's not like i don't swear when things go wrong or the like but swearing every three words is a bit over the board and swearing at girls is just unforgivable. ahh i'm bitching again.
IRISSSSSS. i miss iris. and i've met her like twice only so far =( during the very short 'Ants in the Pants????' outing and the rather short ice-skating-turned-bowling outing. i really won't mind ice-skating if we want to do it again. bring gloves and socks! umm and don't go at 12pm or 4pm or 7pm when they are resurfacing the ice. and mann luckily bowling is cheap cos i'm just wasting my money sending the bowl(?!) into the gutter. but meeting everyone was great. and laughing insanely and making lots of noise and cheering each other on felt wonderful. i love girly outings. i hate it when guys get together and make VULGAR jokes that are totally not funny. i mean, think about it, shouldn't the swear-word-fad be over like a few years back?! it's not like i don't swear when things go wrong or the like but swearing every three words is a bit over the board and swearing at girls is just unforgivable. ahh i'm bitching again.
Tuesday, July 7
i don't understand the video post! (though maybe cos i play it at barely audible volume cos it's 1.44am and everyone in my house is asleep and i just pissed off my mom coming home late and don't want to piss her off by waking her again in the middle of the night x.x)
and how come it doesn't say who posted it!
it feels weird being scolded for coming home late when it's only 1am after getting used to returning home at whenever i want in Edinburgh...
i must try to remember to get home early next time -.-
and how come it doesn't say who posted it!
it feels weird being scolded for coming home late when it's only 1am after getting used to returning home at whenever i want in Edinburgh...
i must try to remember to get home early next time -.-
Wednesday, July 1
hello! tsemin asks me to post so i shall. =) and my every post here seems to be a youtube video pimp so this one is no exception XD
Forbidden Colours by David Sylvian & Sakamoto Ryuichi. Hope it makes your world brighter, especially since many of us are worrying about the future~ or you can just laugh at the music video, it's quite lolarious. But i totally want to buy Sylvian's album now (.__. )
... it'll be corny if i say everyone should follow their dreams right?
Forbidden Colours by David Sylvian & Sakamoto Ryuichi. Hope it makes your world brighter, especially since many of us are worrying about the future~ or you can just laugh at the music video, it's quite lolarious. But i totally want to buy Sylvian's album now (.__. )
... it'll be corny if i say everyone should follow their dreams right?
Friday, May 29
i'm back =)
and will be gone soon with huiyan hee!
met up with the band boys and tm, peixi (for a short while :( ) and hy (for a wonderful GSS shopping spreeeee and i bought new shoes for my japan trip. which reminds me hy and i haven't actually planned fully and i'm still worried about getting lost haha but all will be well. i always have the travel jitters the day before. i couldn't sleep last night x.x stayed wide awake till 4am) i digress. it was great seeing hy and tm and peixi (though i didn't get to talk much to peixi :( ) good luck for the exams dearrr~ though i'm sure u'll do perfectly fine - u always do *smiless* i love to shop with hy cos we always buy stuffff! YAY! and talking to tm was great =) there's always so much to talk about.. and it just makes me looooong to see all u girls again :( hopefully i'll be seeing chong in japan (as soon as she replies to my fb msg grrrr)
and i was reading my past posts.. and i was talking about my 'virtual' bf. haha we broke up and i have a new 'virtual' bf (mann i know u guys are thinking - omg she's like how old and she's still thinking about her virtual bf x.x haha! sorrry *duckss cl's rotten eggs*) he's like 17 and he's from the uk x.x (abit too close for comfort) and he's like this gangster who sells fake weed - 4 rolls for a tenner (he sprays grasss that he plucks randomly with disinfectant or something and pretends it's weed) and sells sugar as fake drug x.x and whose buddy got stabbed recently by this 'guy he knows' who fled the country and got dissed by his parents. haha how surreal. this is so irrelevant. =) but at least it's not emo *looks pointedly at tm's essay* =P ok everyone wish hy luckk, her results are coming out in like a min's time =)
and will be gone soon with huiyan hee!
met up with the band boys and tm, peixi (for a short while :( ) and hy (for a wonderful GSS shopping spreeeee and i bought new shoes for my japan trip. which reminds me hy and i haven't actually planned fully and i'm still worried about getting lost haha but all will be well. i always have the travel jitters the day before. i couldn't sleep last night x.x stayed wide awake till 4am) i digress. it was great seeing hy and tm and peixi (though i didn't get to talk much to peixi :( ) good luck for the exams dearrr~ though i'm sure u'll do perfectly fine - u always do *smiless* i love to shop with hy cos we always buy stuffff! YAY! and talking to tm was great =) there's always so much to talk about.. and it just makes me looooong to see all u girls again :( hopefully i'll be seeing chong in japan (as soon as she replies to my fb msg grrrr)
and i was reading my past posts.. and i was talking about my 'virtual' bf. haha we broke up and i have a new 'virtual' bf (mann i know u guys are thinking - omg she's like how old and she's still thinking about her virtual bf x.x haha! sorrry *duckss cl's rotten eggs*) he's like 17 and he's from the uk x.x (abit too close for comfort) and he's like this gangster who sells fake weed - 4 rolls for a tenner (he sprays grasss that he plucks randomly with disinfectant or something and pretends it's weed) and sells sugar as fake drug x.x and whose buddy got stabbed recently by this 'guy he knows' who fled the country and got dissed by his parents. haha how surreal. this is so irrelevant. =) but at least it's not emo *looks pointedly at tm's essay* =P ok everyone wish hy luckk, her results are coming out in like a min's time =)
Friday, May 22
hrmms. i'm back! was thinking if i stayed away til june.. cin can possibly claim the whole of may! it's only one more week to go. anws cin, i think you'll only see this when you're back in singapore.. possibly on the flight home now? sorry, hy mentioned a date.. but i cant rmb exactly when! we'll try to meet at least once before you guys jet off to japan k?
ok i've been mia cause i've been emo-ing (again). and as i told cin, i didnt really want to make this a sad place cause.. well, if you look back to 2006, i think i was whining in here quite alot. or at least that's what i remember doing all the time, when uni just started and adjusting wasnt easy.
i guess for the issue of playing an instrument again, the topic is already closed. i think most wld know by now that i skipped auditions for the competition, and will not be heading to netherlands anymore. and so the jinx of not being able to travel with a band for a competition still continues. haha. i had a choice this time well but chose otherwise, and felt relieved instead.
It gets really frustrating though when people think that you're running away because you're scared. Admittedly, my trumpet playing.. though slightly better, is still nowhere up to par with the others. But there came a point where.. there wasnt anything worth auditioning for, even if i wasnt up to mark. I know the way the above is being phrased sounds very drama, but that was how I truly felt. Now I kind of understand what cl meant when she says that you shldnt be needing to explain things to pple. Somehow it still frustrates. I shant go into the details here, because, whilst our blog was very stagnant, and prolly not read by others not in the know now, it is still a public one, and I should err on the side of caution.
Does cl still read the blog? I think if you read that line, you'd scold me again for taking things out of context.
and yes, cin. the thing about music. i think paula has mentioned it before, we still appreciate it and all, but i guess.. few will perform again. haha. but one thing i will NOT do regularly will be to touch the piano. i guess with the absence of music making, the piano would do. but it is incredibly frustrating to play (for me). you need coordination of both hands, and you're playing by yourself. just different.
and on about caffeine pills, my goodness. i've never heard abt them before. is it just me? -sheepish look- but that's really bad! and yeah cin. i dont know about fessing up. but i think it's good? like we all now, like you put it 'know what you are thinking normally' oh btw, i read abt eurovision in the newspapers awhile back regarding the norwegian winner. but sadly.. been too lazy to open that link.. will do soon k!
on a completely different note, however, just wanted to share that i've officially graduated. exam results came out today. contrary to what i should be feeling, like happy or excited.. i'm just like. okay. wow. i really can't believe that 3 years have passed (though I wldnt wanna stay in sch for another year) this time round, results wise, as with the bloody "A"s, haha. it is bittersweet as well. i bloody got my 2nd lower, so i shant complain. i barely made it through this sem somehow (hy you were wrong about me not completing that last 20marks!) i barely passed that module, which would spell loads of trouble. gee. i really really hope my current/potential employers will not see my results and dismiss me before i even start work :x
so that's all for now. it's been a long entry. and i hope the emo-ness has been watered down. i cant help it. but yeah. that's what i've been thinking normally for now. and abit. haha.
zhun and the rest.. i think you guys are still having exams? in any case, if you do read this, hang in there ok?
meet up with you guys soon.. i really really cant describe how much i'm looking fwd to the golden week :)
ok i've been mia cause i've been emo-ing (again). and as i told cin, i didnt really want to make this a sad place cause.. well, if you look back to 2006, i think i was whining in here quite alot. or at least that's what i remember doing all the time, when uni just started and adjusting wasnt easy.
i guess for the issue of playing an instrument again, the topic is already closed. i think most wld know by now that i skipped auditions for the competition, and will not be heading to netherlands anymore. and so the jinx of not being able to travel with a band for a competition still continues. haha. i had a choice this time well but chose otherwise, and felt relieved instead.
It gets really frustrating though when people think that you're running away because you're scared. Admittedly, my trumpet playing.. though slightly better, is still nowhere up to par with the others. But there came a point where.. there wasnt anything worth auditioning for, even if i wasnt up to mark. I know the way the above is being phrased sounds very drama, but that was how I truly felt. Now I kind of understand what cl meant when she says that you shldnt be needing to explain things to pple. Somehow it still frustrates. I shant go into the details here, because, whilst our blog was very stagnant, and prolly not read by others not in the know now, it is still a public one, and I should err on the side of caution.
Does cl still read the blog? I think if you read that line, you'd scold me again for taking things out of context.
and yes, cin. the thing about music. i think paula has mentioned it before, we still appreciate it and all, but i guess.. few will perform again. haha. but one thing i will NOT do regularly will be to touch the piano. i guess with the absence of music making, the piano would do. but it is incredibly frustrating to play (for me). you need coordination of both hands, and you're playing by yourself. just different.
and on about caffeine pills, my goodness. i've never heard abt them before. is it just me? -sheepish look- but that's really bad! and yeah cin. i dont know about fessing up. but i think it's good? like we all now, like you put it 'know what you are thinking normally' oh btw, i read abt eurovision in the newspapers awhile back regarding the norwegian winner. but sadly.. been too lazy to open that link.. will do soon k!
on a completely different note, however, just wanted to share that i've officially graduated. exam results came out today. contrary to what i should be feeling, like happy or excited.. i'm just like. okay. wow. i really can't believe that 3 years have passed (though I wldnt wanna stay in sch for another year) this time round, results wise, as with the bloody "A"s, haha. it is bittersweet as well. i bloody got my 2nd lower, so i shant complain. i barely made it through this sem somehow (hy you were wrong about me not completing that last 20marks!) i barely passed that module, which would spell loads of trouble. gee. i really really hope my current/potential employers will not see my results and dismiss me before i even start work :x
so that's all for now. it's been a long entry. and i hope the emo-ness has been watered down. i cant help it. but yeah. that's what i've been thinking normally for now. and abit. haha.
zhun and the rest.. i think you guys are still having exams? in any case, if you do read this, hang in there ok?
meet up with you guys soon.. i really really cant describe how much i'm looking fwd to the golden week :)
Tuesday, May 19
ok i'm lousy at this and i don't know how to link a video -.-
well, watch THISSSS, darlings :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PBykhFyy-ZE
despite the rather dodgy ending to the link - it's the VERY newest song that ANDREW LLOYD WEBBER has composed together with DIANE WARREN for the Eurovision Song Contest 2009 PLUS in the finals, both the singer (Jade Ewen) and ANDREW LLOYD WEBBER performed - he played the piano *swooooons* and i have fallen in love with the song - though it's a tad hard to sing -.-
psst and if anyone, at all, is interested in the eurovision song contest, continue reading - if not, ignore the rest :) check out the winner - norway, alexander ryback, fairytale - and the runner-up - iceland, yohanna, is it true! i liked both songs :D compared to the second runner-up turkey -.- with a fat shakira-wannabe - ok not fat, but not sexy. i quite liked the third runner-up - azerbajain (don't know names) always - i actually jz really like the girl. and uk came in 5th :D
i am officially obsessed with eurovision~~ ahhh..
i wish i were that talented - most of them are amazingly talented - though some just try to use lots of gimmicks like fireworks and dresses that don't cover anything - check out germany - they've gotten a leading cabaret dancer for the act (not to sing of cos) and she wears like what? a corset??! and that was AFTER she was asked to revise her costume cos this is a family show x.x
well, watch THISSSS, darlings :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PBykhFyy-ZE
despite the rather dodgy ending to the link - it's the VERY newest song that ANDREW LLOYD WEBBER has composed together with DIANE WARREN for the Eurovision Song Contest 2009 PLUS in the finals, both the singer (Jade Ewen) and ANDREW LLOYD WEBBER performed - he played the piano *swooooons* and i have fallen in love with the song - though it's a tad hard to sing -.-
psst and if anyone, at all, is interested in the eurovision song contest, continue reading - if not, ignore the rest :) check out the winner - norway, alexander ryback, fairytale - and the runner-up - iceland, yohanna, is it true! i liked both songs :D compared to the second runner-up turkey -.- with a fat shakira-wannabe - ok not fat, but not sexy. i quite liked the third runner-up - azerbajain (don't know names) always - i actually jz really like the girl. and uk came in 5th :D
i am officially obsessed with eurovision~~ ahhh..
i wish i were that talented - most of them are amazingly talented - though some just try to use lots of gimmicks like fireworks and dresses that don't cover anything - check out germany - they've gotten a leading cabaret dancer for the act (not to sing of cos) and she wears like what? a corset??! and that was AFTER she was asked to revise her costume cos this is a family show x.x
Monday, May 4
ahh.. i just watched some bbc documentary thing on the malvem hills, where edward elgar was born - i wasn't really watching, but i heard a familiar music and i watched on xD anyway the point is - he composed a piece 'for a choir to sing in the open, while admiring the countryside' which suddenly struck me as such a wonderful and beautiful idea, and ... if i could sing (and if i had the piece), i want to go out into the hills and sing to them :)
Friday, May 1
my dear tm, and don't say u regret it, who know how long - but a long post from xinyi at 2.20am - bad time isn't it? *shrugs*
well - i think i've said enough about the playing an instrument, and the rg thing :( and i think it just gets us upset - so i'll skip over it xD though i can't emphasize enough how much i miss and love u guys, and how i always think about the things we did - jsut teeny weeny little flashbacks i get at times :D seems so strange - i look at myself in the mirror sometimes and i look exactly the same but so much has happened since those days! and to be honest, i hate growing up :) i do.
first, there's the losing the temper thing. i think i had a phase like that - though i try not to do it so much now. in fact, i don't think i've ever done it since err a certain 'samantha' left my life - i think only huiyan will know who she is - but it was a bad time and i think i lost my temper every other day - and then everything kind of just blew up in my face - and then i moped about it for a few days - and then it seemed like it never happened. but i think i know how u feel, tm, that accidental? outburst of something harsh, something overly rash, and the moment your ears hear it, they send warning signals all over. you see those hurt eyes, and you feel that immense guilt, clashing with that innate anger? irritation? that got you saying something you don't mean to say. you don't want to apologize because you're fuming inside, and that guilt just eats at you. the whole day. and it never goes away. never.
but just one thing about the music that i want to say.. i think... maybe, just maybe, i still have that passion for music with me. i love going for concerts, the music, the ambience, i don't know. and i do love going home in the summer and trashing it out with my piano. i love to sing (in the shower - oh dear) and when i jog by myself (that's why i don't end up jogging a lot - wasting too much breath singing) - omg i can't beleive i just revealed that but that's me :) i do love it. and maybe i can't ever play it professionally or all my life but i'll love it always. and you know what, i still have that little urge to perform one day... maybe it'll be in a small place, maybe in front of my stb colleagues for a party, maybe i'll just sing, or bang out chords on the piano or bob along and pretend to sing.. and i'll treasure that spark always.
(i know i went firstly.. so i should be going secondly.. but ah well, heck xD) and paula dear, caffeine is bad for you, whether in the form of coffee or tea, or caffeine pills (that are very popular with my friends here) or walnuts. it's just bad! as you grow old, you've got to take care of yourself. i feel worried for paula that there's the swine flu and there are cases in canada :( and there's this thing about mortality. you know until like i was seventeen or eighteen, i thought death was a sort of myth, you know, like it only happens to ancient people, and death is sort of far away, and you don't see people dying, not in modern Singapore. Death is a clean affair, a packaging of the corpse, a crematorium fire that burns away all emotions. not until shuxian.. i don't think i've ever even discussed this but i think about it all the time. everytime i hear a certain song i cry cos it reminded me of the photo album her mom showed us, of her lying there, or of the ambitions that her mom so proudly told us about. and all of a sudden, death's so close. you see it. it's not a pretty sight. and it leaves scars and dangly threads. it leaves snapshots of images and endless tears. it makes me cherish life more i suppose though at times i wonder why God would claim such a pretty, smart girl and torture her family so - and why I have been left here in this world, and what am I supposed to do? maybe that's why it's quite hard for me to grasp the concept of religion?
i don't know what's with me and fessing up. maybe cos paula was saying how tm and i were updating each other on life. maybe cos it's nearly 3am. maybe cos tm was being emo too. and thankfully i haven't been drinking. or i'll be even worse probably.
on a happier note, i'm studying for my exams. i've picked feminism, marxism and postcolonialism (so if u want to chat about it, welcome) and neorealism, EH Carr and the Cold War. and i've been playing a MMRPG game :D and i've a virtual bf who's 15 years old and comes from norway (or something like that). time to feel young again ~ i miss having a 15 year old boyfriend xD lol. actually i just miss being 15 years old, and making all the mistakes in the world, and feeling great about it. :D may we always be 15!
well - i think i've said enough about the playing an instrument, and the rg thing :( and i think it just gets us upset - so i'll skip over it xD though i can't emphasize enough how much i miss and love u guys, and how i always think about the things we did - jsut teeny weeny little flashbacks i get at times :D seems so strange - i look at myself in the mirror sometimes and i look exactly the same but so much has happened since those days! and to be honest, i hate growing up :) i do.
first, there's the losing the temper thing. i think i had a phase like that - though i try not to do it so much now. in fact, i don't think i've ever done it since err a certain 'samantha' left my life - i think only huiyan will know who she is - but it was a bad time and i think i lost my temper every other day - and then everything kind of just blew up in my face - and then i moped about it for a few days - and then it seemed like it never happened. but i think i know how u feel, tm, that accidental? outburst of something harsh, something overly rash, and the moment your ears hear it, they send warning signals all over. you see those hurt eyes, and you feel that immense guilt, clashing with that innate anger? irritation? that got you saying something you don't mean to say. you don't want to apologize because you're fuming inside, and that guilt just eats at you. the whole day. and it never goes away. never.
but just one thing about the music that i want to say.. i think... maybe, just maybe, i still have that passion for music with me. i love going for concerts, the music, the ambience, i don't know. and i do love going home in the summer and trashing it out with my piano. i love to sing (in the shower - oh dear) and when i jog by myself (that's why i don't end up jogging a lot - wasting too much breath singing) - omg i can't beleive i just revealed that but that's me :) i do love it. and maybe i can't ever play it professionally or all my life but i'll love it always. and you know what, i still have that little urge to perform one day... maybe it'll be in a small place, maybe in front of my stb colleagues for a party, maybe i'll just sing, or bang out chords on the piano or bob along and pretend to sing.. and i'll treasure that spark always.
(i know i went firstly.. so i should be going secondly.. but ah well, heck xD) and paula dear, caffeine is bad for you, whether in the form of coffee or tea, or caffeine pills (that are very popular with my friends here) or walnuts. it's just bad! as you grow old, you've got to take care of yourself. i feel worried for paula that there's the swine flu and there are cases in canada :( and there's this thing about mortality. you know until like i was seventeen or eighteen, i thought death was a sort of myth, you know, like it only happens to ancient people, and death is sort of far away, and you don't see people dying, not in modern Singapore. Death is a clean affair, a packaging of the corpse, a crematorium fire that burns away all emotions. not until shuxian.. i don't think i've ever even discussed this but i think about it all the time. everytime i hear a certain song i cry cos it reminded me of the photo album her mom showed us, of her lying there, or of the ambitions that her mom so proudly told us about. and all of a sudden, death's so close. you see it. it's not a pretty sight. and it leaves scars and dangly threads. it leaves snapshots of images and endless tears. it makes me cherish life more i suppose though at times i wonder why God would claim such a pretty, smart girl and torture her family so - and why I have been left here in this world, and what am I supposed to do? maybe that's why it's quite hard for me to grasp the concept of religion?
i don't know what's with me and fessing up. maybe cos paula was saying how tm and i were updating each other on life. maybe cos it's nearly 3am. maybe cos tm was being emo too. and thankfully i haven't been drinking. or i'll be even worse probably.
on a happier note, i'm studying for my exams. i've picked feminism, marxism and postcolonialism (so if u want to chat about it, welcome) and neorealism, EH Carr and the Cold War. and i've been playing a MMRPG game :D and i've a virtual bf who's 15 years old and comes from norway (or something like that). time to feel young again ~ i miss having a 15 year old boyfriend xD lol. actually i just miss being 15 years old, and making all the mistakes in the world, and feeling great about it. :D may we always be 15!
Monday, April 20
ah ok i seem to be perpetually on this. just had a paper today. so i'm having a mini break! am pretty much too tired to do any work anyway. haha.
so do walnuts help keep you awake? haha. i've loads at home! mum uses them in her bread all most of the time. but i wont be needing them for long.. one more paper!
ah paula i hope your essays are done! the deadline shld have passed by now, right? hope all's going well!
and.. hahah i'm not going out to work all THAT soon. i've.. 6 more months now. they just pushed it back to october. and yeah i realised that adults.. generally are more serious but they never really lose that childish side of them. so yeah.. as long as there are people around to goof off with, i guess that childish side will always come out :)
yeah i want many meetups too. it's never enough. like last year it only happened.. once? twice?
what about the rest of you guys? when are you coming back?
AND after talking to you briefly online the other day, paula, i realised that my plans are screwed cause i dont know about them. will prolly be in singapore all the way til like june. then the rest i can only confirm after the 16th of may. if you refer to emo post number 1 that started the long 'essays', you'll find out that i was emo cause.. i was all set to not go to netherlands in july. and i still dont know if i'm gonna be able to go. but if i'm not going to the netherlands, i'll prolly jet off to japan for 6 weeks with an option to extend for another 1 or 2 more, if they still accept me. been dragging my feet about handing in the deposit.
ok this is abrupt. but that's all for now.
take care people. drink more water! esp the people in singapore (if you read this!) the weather's scorching hot!
so do walnuts help keep you awake? haha. i've loads at home! mum uses them in her bread all most of the time. but i wont be needing them for long.. one more paper!
ah paula i hope your essays are done! the deadline shld have passed by now, right? hope all's going well!
and.. hahah i'm not going out to work all THAT soon. i've.. 6 more months now. they just pushed it back to october. and yeah i realised that adults.. generally are more serious but they never really lose that childish side of them. so yeah.. as long as there are people around to goof off with, i guess that childish side will always come out :)
yeah i want many meetups too. it's never enough. like last year it only happened.. once? twice?
what about the rest of you guys? when are you coming back?
AND after talking to you briefly online the other day, paula, i realised that my plans are screwed cause i dont know about them. will prolly be in singapore all the way til like june. then the rest i can only confirm after the 16th of may. if you refer to emo post number 1 that started the long 'essays', you'll find out that i was emo cause.. i was all set to not go to netherlands in july. and i still dont know if i'm gonna be able to go. but if i'm not going to the netherlands, i'll prolly jet off to japan for 6 weeks with an option to extend for another 1 or 2 more, if they still accept me. been dragging my feet about handing in the deposit.
ok this is abrupt. but that's all for now.
take care people. drink more water! esp the people in singapore (if you read this!) the weather's scorching hot!
Thursday, April 16
hello dears :)
ah being psychic is good! it means we share a special connection from the bonds that we all have.
i'm so tired but i'm still working on my paper - and my roommate just told me that walnuts are nature's caffeine, so if you want a natural alternative to coffee, eat walnuts! (i'll tell you if it works when i finish my paper)
i've been working on this paper for 4 days (i scheduled only 2) so i'm a bit stressed that the backlog of work will come and bite me! but i guess things will work out in the end, they always will :)
hope everyone has been doing well. at times i stare out of my window and think about the good times that we had, especially that sleepover at nic's house with her hol(e)y shirt and all that eating and silly photos. those were good times. even as some of us *ahem* tm go out to work, let's never lose that child in us, the silliness in us that keeps us young, and close.
can't wait to see all of you again! i vote for many dinners/lunches/teas/sleepovers!
when is everyone coming back? and is anyone flying away for the summer? i'll be back end june!
paula :)
ah being psychic is good! it means we share a special connection from the bonds that we all have.
i'm so tired but i'm still working on my paper - and my roommate just told me that walnuts are nature's caffeine, so if you want a natural alternative to coffee, eat walnuts! (i'll tell you if it works when i finish my paper)
i've been working on this paper for 4 days (i scheduled only 2) so i'm a bit stressed that the backlog of work will come and bite me! but i guess things will work out in the end, they always will :)
hope everyone has been doing well. at times i stare out of my window and think about the good times that we had, especially that sleepover at nic's house with her hol(e)y shirt and all that eating and silly photos. those were good times. even as some of us *ahem* tm go out to work, let's never lose that child in us, the silliness in us that keeps us young, and close.
can't wait to see all of you again! i vote for many dinners/lunches/teas/sleepovers!
when is everyone coming back? and is anyone flying away for the summer? i'll be back end june!
paula :)
Monday, April 13
sorry for the spam pple.
haha paula! i swear you're psychic. was just thinking that i havent talked to you in ages.. and lo and behold! i see a post on the batch blog.. haha.
i was gonna randomly post that.. i havent worn our batch shirt in ages.. and i'm gonna try to locate it after the exams. it's somewhere in my cupboard and i kinda miss seeing it.
when you're bored mugging you think of random things, old times, studying times.
will write a proper post the next time (i'm longwinded)
in the meantime,
hy. pls dont get too stressed with school!
paula: do cheer up! i miss you too! catch up soon..
cin: WHERE'S MY ESSAY?! haha. kidding. hope you're not too busy :)
the rest: WHERE ARE YOU?!
-end of insanity-
haha paula! i swear you're psychic. was just thinking that i havent talked to you in ages.. and lo and behold! i see a post on the batch blog.. haha.
i was gonna randomly post that.. i havent worn our batch shirt in ages.. and i'm gonna try to locate it after the exams. it's somewhere in my cupboard and i kinda miss seeing it.
when you're bored mugging you think of random things, old times, studying times.
will write a proper post the next time (i'm longwinded)
in the meantime,
hy. pls dont get too stressed with school!
paula: do cheer up! i miss you too! catch up soon..
cin: WHERE'S MY ESSAY?! haha. kidding. hope you're not too busy :)
the rest: WHERE ARE YOU?!
-end of insanity-
hello dear :)
my lent resolution was not to read blogs or watch tv online, so that's why i haven't been keeping updated with the batch blog. but it was really nice to see all the posts online, and xy and tm - keep updating each other here! facebook is a bit too public now.. i don't feel very secure posting up stuff, unless we do the message thing.
i heard about rgssb from hy - and i was shell-shocked. i have no idea what to do. and a few days later it was ri, and i was just like 'what?!' it just seemed incredible i think.. like i never thought this would happen. it made me emo for very long. i guess tm is right, we haven't been keeping in touch with our juniors - i guess sometimes we mourn about the loss of tradition/discipline, but aren't we the ones who are supposed to keep the flame burning as well?
and about putting the instrument down - i can safely say that i'll never play the saxophone again. and i think i agree with xy, that i don't think i can imagine myself playing in an unfamiliar environment, having to learn the different mannerisms and take on different habits. rwinds was already quite a stretch, if you guys weren't there i wouldn't have joined. i guess i blogged about it before - making music in life is a phase that for me is completely and utterly over. i don't know what happened, i just felt like it was. i admire all of you who continue playing, whether in rwinds or in the different bands that you all are at - i wish that passion for music had lasted a bit longer for me, that i could have become better and more disciplined at practising.
but i guess i believe that there are some things that happen in life for a reason, and then these things have to come to a close. and that was band for me - what's stayed is the friendships, and i'm so happy that i've met all of you.
exchange in Canada is good, but i'm feeling stressed now because i have loads of work to finish. and i miss you guys so much. the past few days there's been some skirmishes with the people i hang out with (i'm not involved) but it just made me miss the good ol' times when we were together. everything just seemed more.. real. but i guess we all are placed at different places for a reason! :) and we'll see each other soon.
take care everyone :) -hugs-
my lent resolution was not to read blogs or watch tv online, so that's why i haven't been keeping updated with the batch blog. but it was really nice to see all the posts online, and xy and tm - keep updating each other here! facebook is a bit too public now.. i don't feel very secure posting up stuff, unless we do the message thing.
i heard about rgssb from hy - and i was shell-shocked. i have no idea what to do. and a few days later it was ri, and i was just like 'what?!' it just seemed incredible i think.. like i never thought this would happen. it made me emo for very long. i guess tm is right, we haven't been keeping in touch with our juniors - i guess sometimes we mourn about the loss of tradition/discipline, but aren't we the ones who are supposed to keep the flame burning as well?
and about putting the instrument down - i can safely say that i'll never play the saxophone again. and i think i agree with xy, that i don't think i can imagine myself playing in an unfamiliar environment, having to learn the different mannerisms and take on different habits. rwinds was already quite a stretch, if you guys weren't there i wouldn't have joined. i guess i blogged about it before - making music in life is a phase that for me is completely and utterly over. i don't know what happened, i just felt like it was. i admire all of you who continue playing, whether in rwinds or in the different bands that you all are at - i wish that passion for music had lasted a bit longer for me, that i could have become better and more disciplined at practising.
but i guess i believe that there are some things that happen in life for a reason, and then these things have to come to a close. and that was band for me - what's stayed is the friendships, and i'm so happy that i've met all of you.
exchange in Canada is good, but i'm feeling stressed now because i have loads of work to finish. and i miss you guys so much. the past few days there's been some skirmishes with the people i hang out with (i'm not involved) but it just made me miss the good ol' times when we were together. everything just seemed more.. real. but i guess we all are placed at different places for a reason! :) and we'll see each other soon.
take care everyone :) -hugs-
Thursday, April 2
ah i was gonna blog cin (and everyone else of course) an essay a few days ago, didnt have time. and argh yesterday cropped up and.. i decided i had more than an essay to blog. so here goes. i swear it's gonna be my personal blog alr.
wrt nez's post: yeah, i wasnt there, but i heard thru sms. and i was just holding the sms and i was just.. stunned. didnt even bother to ask how they played or anything. was just like.. why didnt we go down to see them play (not like we have time) but wld have wanted to see how they played for myself. and so this person came by.. and her sec sch band got gwh that morn and HAHA-ed in my face abt how it was true (i forgot april fools existed actually) and how they got whatever they got. in all fairness, she usually talks without thinking first. but erms. sorry the shock and all.. like just minutes before, expectedly, i snapped at her.
i glared at her and said 'it's not funny'. and now SHE was stunned. and i felt bad immediately aft tt esp to pple not used to the use of this phrase. i havent given anyone the look in ages. but like whatever. the insensitivity and all. she apologized like a few hrs later aft being kept on tenterhooks (i think) by my seeming bad mood, which had already dissipated by then. i think i stunned myself also. like. omg. that phrase. i doubt we've used it much since we left secondary school. and looks like despite the fact that i work very hard to rein in my -yes, infamous- temper, it's like.. always lurking around somewhere huh.
ok and i promised px i wldnt think so much abt it and erms we'd talk when we meet up (in approx 3 wks or so when i finish running the final race).. but i came home slightly early today and decided to poke around online. ah this batch is united. that's all i can say. chanced upon their batch blog. it's like amazing. and like. nth much has changed despite our perceptions? i still cant fathom why we're like.. not in touch with the band anymore or the like though. like. we dont know who exists and all. gg back to sch w/o seeing the band and all, it's just familiar and nice and potentially very safe. but reading their accounts of life in the best place ever.. ahh thats different. it triggers so many memories and more nostalgia than i've ever experienced in ages. haha. thats called opening a can of worms. backside itchy ask for it.
and on a side note, after not going down for about 2 weeks because of some.. issues and the supposed exam break. i went down to prac for a trp sextet yesterday. was potentially rather disastrous considering we're due to perform in sch next week, and i wasnt there last practice..but.. twas gd to be back in the band room again. haha. music take control indeed, cin! the band room has always been something like a sanctuary wherever we went, and always the nice to practice in i guess. the house sucks.
and you DONT have to do prac crit to see the meaning behind those words! haha. ums. i kinda forgot what prac crit was supposed to be like.. heh. think i wldnt be able to dissect/analyse anything anymore :x BUT one thing for sure: i can definitely see the contrast between tm the housewife and rui the fortune's top 100. what's up with that?! tsk -feels indignant-
and yeah. we'll never find enough time to meet up.. so the moral of the story is.. try to blog more essays? haha. we're all too busy to. i guess we only blog essays when we get busier huh.
ok la. i think this essay was not really an essay anymore. more like an emo post :x
apologies people! didnt mean to be depressing.. i realised i havent written something like that since the transition to uni life. but yeah. just wanted to.. talk abt it.. and my guilt at kinda losing my temper. eeeeeps.
ah wells. back to readings! essay due sat 2000 words :x
wrt nez's post: yeah, i wasnt there, but i heard thru sms. and i was just holding the sms and i was just.. stunned. didnt even bother to ask how they played or anything. was just like.. why didnt we go down to see them play (not like we have time) but wld have wanted to see how they played for myself. and so this person came by.. and her sec sch band got gwh that morn and HAHA-ed in my face abt how it was true (i forgot april fools existed actually) and how they got whatever they got. in all fairness, she usually talks without thinking first. but erms. sorry the shock and all.. like just minutes before, expectedly, i snapped at her.
i glared at her and said 'it's not funny'. and now SHE was stunned. and i felt bad immediately aft tt esp to pple not used to the use of this phrase. i havent given anyone the look in ages. but like whatever. the insensitivity and all. she apologized like a few hrs later aft being kept on tenterhooks (i think) by my seeming bad mood, which had already dissipated by then. i think i stunned myself also. like. omg. that phrase. i doubt we've used it much since we left secondary school. and looks like despite the fact that i work very hard to rein in my -yes, infamous- temper, it's like.. always lurking around somewhere huh.
ok and i promised px i wldnt think so much abt it and erms we'd talk when we meet up (in approx 3 wks or so when i finish running the final race).. but i came home slightly early today and decided to poke around online. ah this batch is united. that's all i can say. chanced upon their batch blog. it's like amazing. and like. nth much has changed despite our perceptions? i still cant fathom why we're like.. not in touch with the band anymore or the like though. like. we dont know who exists and all. gg back to sch w/o seeing the band and all, it's just familiar and nice and potentially very safe. but reading their accounts of life in the best place ever.. ahh thats different. it triggers so many memories and more nostalgia than i've ever experienced in ages. haha. thats called opening a can of worms. backside itchy ask for it.
and on a side note, after not going down for about 2 weeks because of some.. issues and the supposed exam break. i went down to prac for a trp sextet yesterday. was potentially rather disastrous considering we're due to perform in sch next week, and i wasnt there last practice..but.. twas gd to be back in the band room again. haha. music take control indeed, cin! the band room has always been something like a sanctuary wherever we went, and always the nice to practice in i guess. the house sucks.
and you DONT have to do prac crit to see the meaning behind those words! haha. ums. i kinda forgot what prac crit was supposed to be like.. heh. think i wldnt be able to dissect/analyse anything anymore :x BUT one thing for sure: i can definitely see the contrast between tm the housewife and rui the fortune's top 100. what's up with that?! tsk -feels indignant-
and yeah. we'll never find enough time to meet up.. so the moral of the story is.. try to blog more essays? haha. we're all too busy to. i guess we only blog essays when we get busier huh.
ok la. i think this essay was not really an essay anymore. more like an emo post :x
apologies people! didnt mean to be depressing.. i realised i havent written something like that since the transition to uni life. but yeah. just wanted to.. talk abt it.. and my guilt at kinda losing my temper. eeeeeps.
ah wells. back to readings! essay due sat 2000 words :x
Wednesday, April 1
Wednesday, March 25
i love the 'I MISS YOU ALL DAMNED MUCH' bit. so true. and if i were doing prac crit, the capital letters say it all :D and i deal with it like almost my whole long year here. sometimes i go out with like this bunch of girls and have fun, but it's never the same. maybe it's cos i'm always thinking that i'll never see them again in like about 1 year's time and there's no point forging a close bond with them, or maybe it's just cos they can never take the place of you guys in my heart. no matter what. no matter if we've changed, or tm becomes a housewife, or rui gets on Fortune's top 100 next year, it'll always be tm the tpter and rui the flautist to me :D it'll always be clarine lying on her belly, ponytail, homework on a chair, and scribbling frantically in the mornings, or a stealthy shunling dozing off by the timpanis, or arlin and maomao sitting by a house of cards she built, grinning proudly... no matter if chong marries a japanese boy and forgets how to speak english or if huiyan becomes a saintly grandma with tons of blissful grandchildren, i think the memories would stay the same. and i'll always miss you guys xD after getting used to seeing everyone like every single day of my life in secondary school, i don't think we'll ever feel that there is enough time to meet up.
haha but i'm glad we're all sharing the woes of being last-year students - or for me, 3rd year honours student - which means everything counts!- feeling like we should, before we graduate for good, at least pretend to be a good student. i was quite consistent this year, till yong jeng came over, and being lazy, i ponned like all my classes last week -.- except the one where i had to give a presentation. work hard and take care kk... (i must try to remember i'm not writing an email for tm only - though it feels pretty much like it now haha)
let the music take controll :D
haha but i'm glad we're all sharing the woes of being last-year students - or for me, 3rd year honours student - which means everything counts!- feeling like we should, before we graduate for good, at least pretend to be a good student. i was quite consistent this year, till yong jeng came over, and being lazy, i ponned like all my classes last week -.- except the one where i had to give a presentation. work hard and take care kk... (i must try to remember i'm not writing an email for tm only - though it feels pretty much like it now haha)
let the music take controll :D
Sunday, March 22
EH game again? so how's the work coming along? haha. i get what you mean. but for me, i get distracted no matter what. i talk to my sis, i walk up and down, i grab snacks. i cant sit still for even 30 minutes. so having the computer on wld be a HUGE distraction. haha. i take very long to settle down. and then once i do.. time to slp! hahhaha.
dun fret xy! havent you been doing fine so far.. apart from like a paper or two.. the last time you mentioned? you're not useless! not at all!
i think it's the final year in sch syndrome? like i keep feeling like i'm running out of time to do this and that. and how i should try my best to be an ideal student.. though it's not exactly working out very well.. what with all the issues that are on my hands now.. and i swear it's cause i backside itchy consider too many things that's why cannot solve! ARGH!
i havent gone for band the past week. so i guess i'm not enjoying pracs at the moment. haha. but i kinda brought the trp home.. so i'll see how. haha i understand the rationalism thing! makes sense :)
anyways. sunny days are happy days only in edin! hahhaha! sunny days are humid days here :( i wldnt mind if it was sunny and windy! haizz. but yes. okok. i shant give you THAT look. i DO have happy... moments la. thats why I MISS YOU ALL SO DAMNED MUCH! even though i'm thankful for certain things and people on this side. our batch really hasnt communicated much or met up for AGES. anyone rmb japfood last july. so long ago :(
dun fret xy! havent you been doing fine so far.. apart from like a paper or two.. the last time you mentioned? you're not useless! not at all!
i think it's the final year in sch syndrome? like i keep feeling like i'm running out of time to do this and that. and how i should try my best to be an ideal student.. though it's not exactly working out very well.. what with all the issues that are on my hands now.. and i swear it's cause i backside itchy consider too many things that's why cannot solve! ARGH!
i havent gone for band the past week. so i guess i'm not enjoying pracs at the moment. haha. but i kinda brought the trp home.. so i'll see how. haha i understand the rationalism thing! makes sense :)
anyways. sunny days are happy days only in edin! hahhaha! sunny days are humid days here :( i wldnt mind if it was sunny and windy! haizz. but yes. okok. i shant give you THAT look. i DO have happy... moments la. thats why I MISS YOU ALL SO DAMNED MUCH! even though i'm thankful for certain things and people on this side. our batch really hasnt communicated much or met up for AGES. anyone rmb japfood last july. so long ago :(
Tuesday, March 17
yay :D haha, this blog trashes fb anw...
i think i'm going online more cos i'm playing this mmrpg game xD and well, cos i have work to do. i'm not the kind who can stare at a 20 page article and finish reading at one go. i need to read 2 pages and then do something else for like 10 mins then come back, so it always takes me very long to read. if i actually combined the time that i spent reading, it might well be less than an hour -.-
i feel a bit worried cos it's 3rd year, and like i desperately feel like i need to perform, and there's always this bugging feeling that stb will kick me out cos i'm a useless bum. but yeah, i'm working on an essay now :( and a presentation on thurs.
but anw, enjoy pracs while u can! now it feels so far away i wonder if i ever knew it.
and about the rationalism thing, i'm doing this course called 'Realism in International Relations'. the lecturer was saying the real world (realpolitik) is very complex and nuanced, and unpredictable, and emotional, and subjective and contains many truths, so using science/rationalism to dissect and understand the real world to try and find the ONE truth...is like using a spoon to cut bread i.e. using the wrong tool. lol. hope that makes sense :D if not, it doesn't matter. haha!
anw, hope that was just like one gloomy day out of the many happy sunny days u're having :D haha don't give me that grumpy-who-says-i-have-happy-days look kk.. sunny days are all happy days. *hugzzz*
i think i'm going online more cos i'm playing this mmrpg game xD and well, cos i have work to do. i'm not the kind who can stare at a 20 page article and finish reading at one go. i need to read 2 pages and then do something else for like 10 mins then come back, so it always takes me very long to read. if i actually combined the time that i spent reading, it might well be less than an hour -.-
i feel a bit worried cos it's 3rd year, and like i desperately feel like i need to perform, and there's always this bugging feeling that stb will kick me out cos i'm a useless bum. but yeah, i'm working on an essay now :( and a presentation on thurs.
but anw, enjoy pracs while u can! now it feels so far away i wonder if i ever knew it.
and about the rationalism thing, i'm doing this course called 'Realism in International Relations'. the lecturer was saying the real world (realpolitik) is very complex and nuanced, and unpredictable, and emotional, and subjective and contains many truths, so using science/rationalism to dissect and understand the real world to try and find the ONE truth...is like using a spoon to cut bread i.e. using the wrong tool. lol. hope that makes sense :D if not, it doesn't matter. haha!
anw, hope that was just like one gloomy day out of the many happy sunny days u're having :D haha don't give me that grumpy-who-says-i-have-happy-days look kk.. sunny days are all happy days. *hugzzz*
Sunday, March 15
omg cin. now the blog has become our personal message board! hahahha!
didnt expect to see the next post so quickly. was ranting cause i thought no one'd see it til this thing blows over kind of thing. was just popping by again seeing as this is a sun.
ehh. the thing about being rational is that it would save you alot of heartache next time if you made the right (but difficult) choice instead of following your heart, which can be reckless sometimes. but yeah. i know it's hard to do so. it always is huh. but erms. i dun see the link between the spoon and bread thing and how it links to rationalism. which module was that? haa. that's interesting. though i'm a lil more receptive to what i'm learning now.. it's still rather dry and boring in comparison!
and i didnt realise it was friday the 13th. heh. dont notice such things anymore :x
eh and i guess both ways we look at the playing thing.. makes sense? it was indeed difficult to adapt to the different styles, people, discipline and all that. anger ruled/still rules most of the time when the frustration mounts. but still.. time with the instrument helps make the week more interesting and at times (especially in the past) bearable.
sometimes for me no matter how busy i am, i cannot pon a practice because that has been ingrained in me since a long time ago. and though i CAN pon technically, it just feels wrong. and pple just do it without batting an eyelid.
BUT don't be emo abt not playing anymore! you'd hafta get a new instrument to join right? and that'd be expensive. and your environment's completely different from what i have.. at least there's mr o, and mr i's nice.. like sometimes he'll talk abt familiar people and things during tutorship sessions. and though i'm like in a somewhat culturally different setting, yours is vastly different.
thats why i think that the exchange student from ur sch who joined us for our concert is v brave! like he'll join us for outings and meals before pracs even though he doesnt understand why we do stuff, even if the section isnt receptive to his comments, or even if he doesn't understand the mandarin/dialect that we typically lapse into. but i think it takes time to settle in too, so yah lor. both ways are difficult. haha. was just thinking the other day that it wld be nice if our batch cld just play together again. with this being the comp season, you start thinking abt things and pieces like dear giantrobo again. haha.
have you been busy? you seem to be constantly needing to rush essays (still?) last semester as well right? suddenly cin pops online and posts so often!
didnt expect to see the next post so quickly. was ranting cause i thought no one'd see it til this thing blows over kind of thing. was just popping by again seeing as this is a sun.
ehh. the thing about being rational is that it would save you alot of heartache next time if you made the right (but difficult) choice instead of following your heart, which can be reckless sometimes. but yeah. i know it's hard to do so. it always is huh. but erms. i dun see the link between the spoon and bread thing and how it links to rationalism. which module was that? haa. that's interesting. though i'm a lil more receptive to what i'm learning now.. it's still rather dry and boring in comparison!
and i didnt realise it was friday the 13th. heh. dont notice such things anymore :x
eh and i guess both ways we look at the playing thing.. makes sense? it was indeed difficult to adapt to the different styles, people, discipline and all that. anger ruled/still rules most of the time when the frustration mounts. but still.. time with the instrument helps make the week more interesting and at times (especially in the past) bearable.
sometimes for me no matter how busy i am, i cannot pon a practice because that has been ingrained in me since a long time ago. and though i CAN pon technically, it just feels wrong. and pple just do it without batting an eyelid.
BUT don't be emo abt not playing anymore! you'd hafta get a new instrument to join right? and that'd be expensive. and your environment's completely different from what i have.. at least there's mr o, and mr i's nice.. like sometimes he'll talk abt familiar people and things during tutorship sessions. and though i'm like in a somewhat culturally different setting, yours is vastly different.
thats why i think that the exchange student from ur sch who joined us for our concert is v brave! like he'll join us for outings and meals before pracs even though he doesnt understand why we do stuff, even if the section isnt receptive to his comments, or even if he doesn't understand the mandarin/dialect that we typically lapse into. but i think it takes time to settle in too, so yah lor. both ways are difficult. haha. was just thinking the other day that it wld be nice if our batch cld just play together again. with this being the comp season, you start thinking abt things and pieces like dear giantrobo again. haha.
have you been busy? you seem to be constantly needing to rush essays (still?) last semester as well right? suddenly cin pops online and posts so often!
Saturday, March 14
my darling tm
don't worry about being rational.
if my lecturer were here, he'd say: applying rationalism in real life is like cutting bread with a spoon. he has said it 7-8 times (the spoon thing and this American ACTUALLY went to try it) since the semester started (cos we've had about 7-8 weeks worth of classes o_O) humans are complex, and it's just inappropriate to be rational all the time xD i'm twisting his statement awfully but hey girl, we all need our emo times. PLUS it's fri the 13th today. i began to be emo since 12am today o_O when i spilt a cup of water all over my bagss and books.
about the playing thing, i thought the opposite. i thought it was the people who picked up their instrument, despite knowing that everything is different - the style, the people, the discipline, the mood, the practices - and despite knowing that it's so much easier to put it all down and run away from it, those are the people who are brave :) i feel horrible when i chose not to join the band here. i couldn't bear to see the difference. the attitude. if i were to fit in, i'll have to be like them - throwing my clarinet everywhere, and drinking alcohol during breaks. but somehow, i persuaded myself that i'll have to give up anyway, that i can't play anymore.. but inside of me, it feels like i'm lying to myself and that i'm giving up cos i can't drag myself out to band pracs that had familiar songs, but no familiar people; a familiar set-up but a different environment.
Applause for the people who continue playing till today.
Somehow I feel hypocritical calling myself a band girl still...
SEe, emo-ness.
don't worry about being rational.
if my lecturer were here, he'd say: applying rationalism in real life is like cutting bread with a spoon. he has said it 7-8 times (the spoon thing and this American ACTUALLY went to try it) since the semester started (cos we've had about 7-8 weeks worth of classes o_O) humans are complex, and it's just inappropriate to be rational all the time xD i'm twisting his statement awfully but hey girl, we all need our emo times. PLUS it's fri the 13th today. i began to be emo since 12am today o_O when i spilt a cup of water all over my bagss and books.
about the playing thing, i thought the opposite. i thought it was the people who picked up their instrument, despite knowing that everything is different - the style, the people, the discipline, the mood, the practices - and despite knowing that it's so much easier to put it all down and run away from it, those are the people who are brave :) i feel horrible when i chose not to join the band here. i couldn't bear to see the difference. the attitude. if i were to fit in, i'll have to be like them - throwing my clarinet everywhere, and drinking alcohol during breaks. but somehow, i persuaded myself that i'll have to give up anyway, that i can't play anymore.. but inside of me, it feels like i'm lying to myself and that i'm giving up cos i can't drag myself out to band pracs that had familiar songs, but no familiar people; a familiar set-up but a different environment.
Applause for the people who continue playing till today.
Somehow I feel hypocritical calling myself a band girl still...
SEe, emo-ness.
Friday, March 13
HAHAHA next post is almost a month later! so obsolete or not? hmmmm i wonder...
eh cin.. i dont really notice fb much, cause im not playing games on it anymore. haa. and i'm the opp of you. the more i need to check, i'll check obsessively to ensure i dont miss anything. but on prac days.. it's like.. i dun check anything for an entire day and i get paranoid the next day that i miss sth.. this semester it's not so bad.. but when we have projs to do.. it's really bad! you have to check like a couple of times a day! haha.
and talking about practice.. actually i came on to rant because i didnt really know where to put this. i think for the people who have stopped playing for so many years.. i think that took alot of courage. even if you miss your instrument greatly now..
dont know how to put this. but erms. 3 years ago it was like. i was sick and tired of being bad at the trumpet and all and was ready to retire for good. and then i picked up the trumpet again. and was still bad at it and carried on. if i were to give it up abruptly now, it's like. i'd be lost. haa. maybe i shld have stopped playing back then. it was easier to stop.. heh. but then i wld have missed out alot on uni life on this ulu pok campus..
guess what. rmb the last time we bawled in sec sch cause it seemed like our last band prac was like the end of the world? today, abruptly, i wanted to start bawling again. haha. being in the final yr really seems like.. the end of the world to me. stop playing? too busy next time? shelf life on trp has been extended for some time now, despite the love hate relationship with it and all. how do i stop?!
have no idea why i'm being so emo. but erms. need to rant. havent been ranting on the blog for some time now.. haha. i rmb all the emo posts made when i was still in year 1. you must be alarmed. dont be. i just need to find a way to be rational and erms. wean myself off the trp? haizzzz.
eh cin.. i dont really notice fb much, cause im not playing games on it anymore. haa. and i'm the opp of you. the more i need to check, i'll check obsessively to ensure i dont miss anything. but on prac days.. it's like.. i dun check anything for an entire day and i get paranoid the next day that i miss sth.. this semester it's not so bad.. but when we have projs to do.. it's really bad! you have to check like a couple of times a day! haha.
and talking about practice.. actually i came on to rant because i didnt really know where to put this. i think for the people who have stopped playing for so many years.. i think that took alot of courage. even if you miss your instrument greatly now..
dont know how to put this. but erms. 3 years ago it was like. i was sick and tired of being bad at the trumpet and all and was ready to retire for good. and then i picked up the trumpet again. and was still bad at it and carried on. if i were to give it up abruptly now, it's like. i'd be lost. haa. maybe i shld have stopped playing back then. it was easier to stop.. heh. but then i wld have missed out alot on uni life on this ulu pok campus..
guess what. rmb the last time we bawled in sec sch cause it seemed like our last band prac was like the end of the world? today, abruptly, i wanted to start bawling again. haha. being in the final yr really seems like.. the end of the world to me. stop playing? too busy next time? shelf life on trp has been extended for some time now, despite the love hate relationship with it and all. how do i stop?!
have no idea why i'm being so emo. but erms. need to rant. havent been ranting on the blog for some time now.. haha. i rmb all the emo posts made when i was still in year 1. you must be alarmed. dont be. i just need to find a way to be rational and erms. wean myself off the trp? haizzzz.
Thursday, February 26
whee! not obsolete -
and by the way tm, i'm one of those ulu people who don't really log into fb like very frequently! haha xD i'm so terrible. especially when people create events and ONLY put on fb without like msging me or like telling me personally - i tend to just miss it and then get a call saying 'omg wth are u still at home?! didn't u see the fb event'
but i think moving this to fb might just work..
i think i'm just being a recluse these days - refusing to check my emails or fb inbox cos i'm scared of seeing things that i have to reply to... i think i'm beginning to have internet-phobia.
irrelevantly, i watched 'he's just not that into you' - i love it!!!! whee - not sure if everyone will though HMM. i think nic might, paula might, px might, hy and rui probably might, chong might, inez might?, not too sure abt like tm or clarine HMM. it's sooooo sweeet! and like totally true! so if anyone secretly wants some tips on guys, go watch it! HAHAHA! well, i think it's a really good movie even without that - it's hilarious!!!
-- so everyone, go watch a crazily funny movie and be happpppy -- before we step into the deep dark world of WORK o_O
and by the way tm, i'm one of those ulu people who don't really log into fb like very frequently! haha xD i'm so terrible. especially when people create events and ONLY put on fb without like msging me or like telling me personally - i tend to just miss it and then get a call saying 'omg wth are u still at home?! didn't u see the fb event'
but i think moving this to fb might just work..
i think i'm just being a recluse these days - refusing to check my emails or fb inbox cos i'm scared of seeing things that i have to reply to... i think i'm beginning to have internet-phobia.
irrelevantly, i watched 'he's just not that into you' - i love it!!!! whee - not sure if everyone will though HMM. i think nic might, paula might, px might, hy and rui probably might, chong might, inez might?, not too sure abt like tm or clarine HMM. it's sooooo sweeet! and like totally true! so if anyone secretly wants some tips on guys, go watch it! HAHAHA! well, i think it's a really good movie even without that - it's hilarious!!!
-- so everyone, go watch a crazily funny movie and be happpppy -- before we step into the deep dark world of WORK o_O
Wednesday, February 4
haha inez! in final year cant get instep alr la. 2nd sem alr leh and i dont wanna dabao. and in any case i happily got rejected thrice. as i said i'm trying my best to be a good student at last. it's like not exactly the last set of exams that i will take ever in my life, but i guess it's pretty much kinda the last time i'll be a full time student in at least for awhile so i'm trying to work hard no cause of deadlines like projs and essays but erms consistently.. after errr i wonder how many years in the education system.
why will you be knee deep in trouble? havent settled internship yet? all will be fine! enjoy ur remaining time in japan though!
gee as you can tell i'm kinda checking on the blog from time to time and i kinda had a 5 hr break between lessons and practice. listening to online lectures got futile after awhile. man i'm so sleepy!
why will you be knee deep in trouble? havent settled internship yet? all will be fine! enjoy ur remaining time in japan though!
gee as you can tell i'm kinda checking on the blog from time to time and i kinda had a 5 hr break between lessons and practice. listening to online lectures got futile after awhile. man i'm so sleepy!
Saturday, January 31
hahaha and now I'm posting again! I'm rather embarrassed. the last few posts of the year were all made by me =O
I'm not on attachment yet, I'm still in Japan ^___^ two weeks left, I'm counting down. ohyes cin! I ordered that song in karaoke the other time and my jap friend was like OMG MY PARENTS ARE FANS OF THIS GUY o_O wikipedia says he pioneered visual kei, so i guess it explains the pants and sparkles. also, last night we were watching the top 200 songs of the past 50 years on Music Station and I just realised japanese graffiti is secretly a crash course on showa pop =P
tm you're on your final year now right? jiayou!!!~~~ I think i'll be knee-deep in trouble when i get back T-T i'm scared i may have to retain, but exchange is worth it. try to get instep!
I'm not on attachment yet, I'm still in Japan ^___^ two weeks left, I'm counting down. ohyes cin! I ordered that song in karaoke the other time and my jap friend was like OMG MY PARENTS ARE FANS OF THIS GUY o_O wikipedia says he pioneered visual kei, so i guess it explains the pants and sparkles. also, last night we were watching the top 200 songs of the past 50 years on Music Station and I just realised japanese graffiti is secretly a crash course on showa pop =P
tm you're on your final year now right? jiayou!!!~~~ I think i'll be knee-deep in trouble when i get back T-T i'm scared i may have to retain, but exchange is worth it. try to get instep!
Tuesday, January 27
omg cin.. you posted! in response to your question.. yeah possibly the blog is really obsolete. i only noticed it today!! and i was super surprised.. havent popped by in ages.. but anyhow
happy chinese new year everybody!
that day i was just wondering if shifting this to a closed facebook group would work.. just to 'move with the times' haha. then i realised.. possibly not eh. everyone's so busy.. and though we log into facebook more often.. i doubt we'd really post on a thread or anything like that (or at least i'm pretty inactive on facebook)
inez shld be back by now doing attachment.. right? how is it?
there seems to be this great big japan craze to me at the moment, or so i think. many pple around me are thinking of learning/are learning the language. and i'm pretty tempted to at the moment. ah wells.
hope everyone is coping well with whatever they're handling. i've been pretty much a hermit and havent been catching up with anyone in sg or abroad. think about you guys quite a bit though.. i hope you do check back here and see this message. post if you've time!
happy chinese new year everybody!
that day i was just wondering if shifting this to a closed facebook group would work.. just to 'move with the times' haha. then i realised.. possibly not eh. everyone's so busy.. and though we log into facebook more often.. i doubt we'd really post on a thread or anything like that (or at least i'm pretty inactive on facebook)
inez shld be back by now doing attachment.. right? how is it?
there seems to be this great big japan craze to me at the moment, or so i think. many pple around me are thinking of learning/are learning the language. and i'm pretty tempted to at the moment. ah wells.
hope everyone is coping well with whatever they're handling. i've been pretty much a hermit and havent been catching up with anyone in sg or abroad. think about you guys quite a bit though.. i hope you do check back here and see this message. post if you've time!
Friday, January 16
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
this blog -is- obsolete (as tm commented)
omg inez, i'm so jealous of you.. i wish i were in japan too, applied and got into waseda but then i couldn't go in the end, it was such a huge disappointment :(
AND OMG, the jap graff vid is so .. um, weird! haha. wth is he wearing, leather tights?! and he's a guy ya? why is his top like so umm girly. ARGH. and his dance moves.. umm. haha!!! reminds me of the times when we were playing jap graf V though.. ah so long ago, and now we're all so old.
this blog -is- obsolete (as tm commented)
omg inez, i'm so jealous of you.. i wish i were in japan too, applied and got into waseda but then i couldn't go in the end, it was such a huge disappointment :(
AND OMG, the jap graff vid is so .. um, weird! haha. wth is he wearing, leather tights?! and he's a guy ya? why is his top like so umm girly. ARGH. and his dance moves.. umm. haha!!! reminds me of the times when we were playing jap graf V though.. ah so long ago, and now we're all so old.
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